Don't Go Far Off, Not Even For A Day

 WHAT ON MY MIND?

Don't go far off, not even for a day, because --
because -- I don't know how to say it: a day is long
and I will be waiting for you, as in an empty station
when the trains are parked off somewhere else, asleep.

As a teenager I became unsure of  hanging onto the past
of grasping the future. For the past was sure-footed,
unselfish,
unencumbered,
magical,
mythical.
But the future was clumsy
uneven,
uncharted
and
scary.
My playground became
the real
big,
bad,
wicked,
wide,
world,
where one had to put aside the
magical,
mythical,
and
encompass the uncertainty
of the future, facing it.

  Through You

I see through you, and through you
My future still seems so blurry
I see through you, and through you
I still feel you, flowing through my veins
I see through you, and through you
My future keeps turning out so dim
I need you, to guide me into the light
I’ll feed you, with my dreams that haunt me in the night
One day I’ll see you, I’ll feel you, one day you’ll be a part of me
But for now I can’t see my future that still seems so blurry.

Melancholy Song

A melancholy song plays
reversing the future to the past
along a wasteland
of invisible dotted lines
filled with haunted pits
where no one should ever enter.
From a future full of promise
to a past full of uncertainty
where the weeping willow sways
under a mournful wind
as the melancholy song
drags the past to the future
so misery can rein again. 

So on . I got mix feelings everyday. =)

BROKEN FRIENDSHIP

A Friendship Lost

I remember the time not long ago
When we laughed and shared it all
We were the very best of friends
Or at least that’s what I thought.

How can someone once so close

is like a stranger when u try to save something but they seems dont understand u .

I must have been lacking
I must have been wrong
I wasn’t the friend to you
That you were to me all along.
Who fault? i am not sure right now . 

I just sure that i gave and say what i think are right? or you think im such a pathetic?

Now there’s nothing to do
A friendship lost
Is a very sad thing
The angels weep instead of sing.

We don't always know the reason why friendships are severed, but one thing is for sure, it leaves a void in those who were part of it.

INSPIRED BY BEYONCE - LISTEN

Listen to the song here in my heart
A melody I start but can't complete
Listen to the sound from deep within
It's only beginning to find release

Oh, the time has come for my dreams to be heard
They will not be pushed aside and turned
Into your own all 'cause you won't
Listen

Listen, I am alone at a crossroads

I'm not at home in my own home
And I've tried and tried to say what's on mind
You should have known

Oh, now I'm done believing you
You don't know what I'm feeling
I'm more than what you made of me
I followed the voice you gave to me
But now I've gotta find my own

You should have listened, there is someone here inside
Someone I thought had died so long ago
Oh, I'm screaming out and my dreams'll be heard
They will not be pushed aside on words

Into your own all 'cause you won't
Listen

Listen, I am alone at a crossroads
I'm not at home in my own home
And I've tried and tried to say what's on mind
You should have known

Oh, now I'm done believing you
You don't know what I'm feeling
I'm more than what you made of me
I followed the voice you gave to me
But now I've gotta find my own

I don't know where I belong
But I'll be moving on
If you don't, if you won't

Listen to the song here in my heart
A melody I start but I will complete

Oh, now I'm done believing you
You don't know what I'm feeling
I'm more than what you made of me
I followed the voice you think you gave to me
But now I've gotta find my own, my own.

THIS IS HOW IT IS

Tear Stains On My Heart

I must have cried a million tears maybe that why i got tear stains on my heart . 

Each time my I-love-yous went unrequited, It was as if I were slitting my own wrists with those stagnated words…

Each forced conversation maybe cure but maybe not . 

We cannot hold on to our love much longer For this chaos has made me stronger You still hold a special place in my heart . No one can see past it Except for you and your friendship I must accept it Friends are all we are going to be For now, we'll see But if it's meant to be God will take care of everything It's not in our hands anymore He will make the final call If we are meant to be He will be the one to choose He will lead us back to each other. This one is i assumed that Joanne gave this message to her ...

LOVE FACT

Love Facts
There is not just one, but there are many forms of love. The man who is not well may use just one word to describe how he feels.

So it is with love. There are many forms of it. Those in love may feel quite similar to those whose love is of a very different type.

Actually, however, one form of love may be quite unlike another. Some forms of love are essential to successful marriage, or even to successful living. Other kinds of love are forms of selfishness.

Sometimes we love people in the same way —even our own children. We get what we want out of them, often regardless of their wishes or best interests. Sometimes young people love and want to marry, mainly because they want to get something out of the other, not because they desire their partners' good.

Yet this selfish kind of love may look and feel just like any other kind. Not all forms of love are good and sound. Some forms should be warning signals, rather than bases for marriage.

The important question is not, "Do I love him enough to marry him?" It is rather, do we feel the kind of love toward each other upon which a marriage can successfully be built?

HAVE A NICE DAY =)

FAILURE IS NOT AN OPTION TO GIVE UP

IGNORE ME . 

failure is not an option

No matter how you plan
there is always that possibility of a failure,
no one has control about
this necessity,

it is not an option to flunk,
you all worked hard for all those years
to earn the title and gain the trust
but not all will make it
some will have to take the bottom
of things
the failure of an endeavor
success cannot exist
without it
one cannot see God
without the
appearance of Evil
one cannot be strong
unless he had been
weak once
i cannot be divine
unless i start
from the bottom line
of my humanity, 

if i can see clearly now
it was because i was blind for all those years.
move on, let not that failure
make you fail.

MOTIVATIONAL POEMS

When things go wrong as they sometimes will,
When the road you're trudging seems all uphill,
When funds are low and the debts are high,
And you want to smile, but you have to sigh.
When care is pressing you down a bit.
Rest, if you must, but don't you quit.
Life is queer with its twists and turns
As every one of us sometimes learns.
And many a failure turns about
When he might have won had he stuck it out:
Don't give up though the pace seems slow -
You may succeed with another blow.
Success is failure turned inside out -
The silver tint of the clouds of doubt.
And you never can tell how close you are.
It may be near when it seems so far:
So stick to the fight when you're hardest hit
It's when things seem worst that you must not quit.

GHOST

i cut my own hair bang. status - stun brain . 

Ghost,
Did you know sometimes it frightens me .

why is it me you've chosen to follow
did you like the way I look when I am sleeping
was my hair more fun to tangle
are my dreams more entertaining? do you laugh when I'm complaining that I'm all alone in my room?

is it enough for you to steal into my mind?

ANGEL  =) ,
tell me what I am to do
but until then I'll save your side of the bed
just come and sing me to sleep .

DISTRAIT

TO ME . 

Too Bad 

As for me,

I’ll try to make due,
With so much to prove,
Breaking hearts was never my best trait,
But you on the other hand,
Is a whole other rhyme.

Can't Do Everything

They ask what’s wrong with me,
When I’m on the edge,
When I crack with one sarcastic word said,
Then they just get angry,
Like I’m meant to be perfect or something.

Don’t get me wrong,
I love you all so much with all my might,
But I’m just tired of dealing with all of this all the time,
I just want my own life,
I’m tired of picking up all the slack,
When no one else give a crap,
It wouldn’t bother me so much,
But you never even take time to understand,
Why I’m so upset.

This is all I have to get this out,
I just wish I could tell them this,
Without them taking everything out on me because of this,
I hope one day they’ll just understand me when I say this
“I can’t do everything.”

Don't really Care 

You don’t know what to say,
I know it’s in the back of your head,
You say “I’m confused”,
Just get over it will you?

Short and bitter is the likeness we share,
As we question the error of this place.

It’s so funny how little I care,
I’m just tired of being a mistake,
Rather me or them,
Words fall into place,
“It shouldn’t have happened, what a mistake”.

Oh God I just hate those words.
From what I’ve seen,
I just can’t put it into words that fit,
I write it the best I can,
And put the book of pointless rhymes.
For now I'm done I just can’t get by.

Mixed Up Thoughts 

Shooting stars,
Painful scars

Distant voices,
And bitter choices.

But this is all beside the point,
Oh wait there never was one,
These are just some mixed up thoughts,
Just some mixed up thoughts from me,
But who gives a damn
Aww there it is,
That’s my point beneath this rhyme,
Now I'll carry on with my time.

JUST ME . 

THE SERENDIPITY OF MINE

SORRY I LOVE YOU OST . (SAD DRAMA , BUT MEANINGFUL)

Every human being has many a moments in life .

“There's one sad truth in life I've found

While journeying east and west -

The only folks we really wound

Are those we love the best.

We flatter those we scarcely know,

We please the fleeting guest,

And deal full many a thoughtless blow

To those who love us best.”

And i say sayonara this time i know.

A BLUE STAR IN YOUR EYES

SERENDIPITY . 

Whether you are far or near
it is like whispering in my ear.

Gentle serenity is what you are.

You are blessed with tranquility.

Leo (July 22 - August 21)
The spitfire of all the twelve signs! The lioness is strong, popular, and a real catch—if you ever manage to win her affections. It’s practically futile—and unwise—to try to get the Leo woman under your control, but she makes such a loving, caring mate that you can be just as happy letting her take charge.

STAY REALISTIC . 

THE LISTENING

The Listening Lyrics

Please excuse me, I'm not thinking clear
It must just be stress
But I likely shouldn't be here, I'm such a mess

I never really ever know what to say
When all of my emotions get in the way
I'm just trying to get us on the same page (Wish I could explain)

I always get it better right afterward
When all the wrong impressions are said and heard
How come I can never get the right words, I need to convey
Wish I could explain The things that I have to work out

I don't feel right
What has come over me, I'm about
To lose my mind

I never really ever know what to say
When all of my emotions get in the way
I'm just trying to get us on the same page (Wish I could explain)

I always get it better right afterward
When all the wrong impressions are said and heard
How come I can never get the right words, I need to convey
Wish I could explain

Can I let the trees do the talking
Can I let the ground do the walking
Can I let the sky fill what's missing
Can I let my mouth do the listening, the listening

I never really ever know what to say
When all of my emotions get in the way
I'm just trying to get us on the same page

I always get it better right afterward
When all the wrong impressions are said and heard
How come I can never get the right words, I need to convey
Wish I could explain
What I mean to say.

To Let Go....Is not to enable,
but to allow learning from natural consequences.
Is to admit powerlessness,
which means the outcome is not in my hands.

A BLUR SHADOW

I don't know why
My destiny has been choosing you
To be my heaven
Even you are only a blur shadow.

A song
of wounds hold life's
hand and walks the sleepless
terrain bringing distance
between two hearts .

http://youtu.be/dkF06GkO31U

All BY MYSELF

TELL THEM I KNOW NOW. 

RETARDNESS SMILE XS.

KO FIKIR SA MAIN2 LA. MY DRUG WORD.

RETARDNESS AGAIN. ~~

HAVE A NICE DAY . IT MAY NOW . XD